Memorial Day!

There isn't one day that goes by that I don't think of Ryan, or talk about great memories I have of my brother! I came across this poem and thought I would share it... My brother is gone but I know his spirit is still alive! I know he is watching over his family and friends.... Today is a day of tribute to him, for all he has done for everyone that he touched in his life! I am proud to be his sister and proud to be the aunt to Shianne, Kody, Kellsie and Anthony!

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow;
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain;
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush;
I am in the graceful rush.
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.I am the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

I love you Ryan!

P.S. I love you

A grieving widow finds her husband's warmth radiating from the afterlife when she discovers that he left her a series of tasks to be revealed in ten monthly messages and designed to help her overcome her sorrow while gradually making the transition into a new life. Holly Kennedy (Hilary Swank) is a New York real estate broker whose good-humored husband, Irishman Gerry Gerard Butler, always stood by her side. Suddenly, and seemingly out of nowhere, Gerry succumbs to a brain tumor and Holly is left to face an uncertain future. No one in the world knows Holly better than Gerry, not even her mother (Kathy Bates) or her best friends Sharon (Gina Gershon) and Denise (Lisa Kudrow). But while Holly remains unsure if she can go on without the love of her life to help guide her, Gerry has planned ahead. On Holly's thirtieth birthday, she receives a cake and a special tape recording from Gerry that implores her to get out and celebrate instead of staying in and mourning. Later, as the months wear on, a series of additional messages arrive from Gerry -- always delivered in the most remarkable and surprising of ways. With each new message comes a new adventure, and each letter signs off in the same familiar way: "P.S. I love you." Despite the fact that Holly's mother and friends think these humorous, posthumous messages are keeping Holly bound to the past, the truth is that they are lovingly guiding her into the future while proving that sometimes death isn't just the end, but a new beginning as well.

This had to be one of most amazing movies I've seen. I cried like a baby during the show and even after! It was a huge reality check for me, and it made me realize alot of things! Mitch my husband is a great man! There are so many words to define him.. He held me all night and told me so many wonderful things about me and our life, kids etc. You don't realize that you can go at any given momment so to live your life to the fullest. Don't sweat the small or big stuff, life is way to short to worry and stress about money, bills, life as we call it. Easier said then done, I know I'll be the first to admit.... but to smile everyday for what you have. Be thankful... I think life sometimes gets us caught up and takes advantage of us but to always come back down to whats important! I don't know how I would deal with or greive if I lost the love of my life - I don't even like talking about it but I do know that I have the most wonderful family and friends in my life to walk me through it.